Sunday, November 8, 2009

down

I don't know why I feel so down lately. I go from feeling like a fighter to wanting to give up constantly. It's so hard to work though these emotions and feel so isolated all the time. I rarely get out of the house anymore unless it's to go to the store or chemo treatments. I think it is finally starting to take a toll on me. I'm tired of being sad and I know I need to pull myself out of this funk. I just sometimes wonder why all of this..my cancer, my son's issues, and my husband leaving during all of this had to be my burden..how much more can I withstand?!

Sorry for the downer post, but I just had to get this off my chest.

2 comments:

  1. VickI ~ Hang in there girlie, you are doing awesome. Just think of how great your results were with your last post (yeah for normal counts!!!!) That is HUGE! Plus your kiddos are totally worth fighting for - they love you. Oh and of course we LOVE you and NEED you! You are going to kick cancer's bootie and come back even more amazing than you already are.

    Write to your hearts content to get it all out, then, go back to being your positive, happy self! Writing can be so therapeutic so I am glad you are doing it.

    Xoxo ~ ME

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  2. Thanks Danica. You always lift my spirits with your positive thoughts. :0)

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